Hello my dear readers,
I hope you are doing well. To be honest, I don´t know where to start. Last month we got the amazing message that we will be parents again. Everything went well, I had 2 ultrasounds, morning sickness, and all pregnancy symptoms you can imagine. My belly was slowly popping out and I was looking forward to buy maternity clothes. The last week I was feeling great, my energy levels increased and morning sickness was gone. I was so ready to enter second trimester. As week 12 was approaching (on Monday 26th I was supposed to have my 12 week check out and ultrasound), on Saturday I woke up in the morning bleeding. I was bleeding with my son too, but it was week 5 or 6 but it was much lighter. This time it was so much heavier so I got scared and I cried because subconsciously I knew that something was wrong. We went to the nearest hospital and there I got injection to stop bleeding. In the afternoon the bleeding went worse. So we went to the hospital where my son was born (the doctors and nurses there are amazing, I cannot thank them enough for the care, professionality and humanity they have) and we got the worst message in my life. That the baby had no heartbeat and I had missed abortion. I have never felt more helpless and I think I have never been this sad in my life. So my doctor suggested to order me on curettage which happened on Monday. After the operation I felt kind of empty. My baby was gone. Since then I am trying to suppress my grief with emotional eating, but I really need some time to go through all the emotions flowing through my mind. I know it is bad for me and for my overall health. I know how important is to have some support, so if any of you went through something similar, please feel free to DM me on my social media accounts. We can help each other. A lot of people don´t speak about this situation, but I think it´s important to talk about it. I have read and heard that 20 % of pregnancies end with missed or other kinds of abortions. I don´t know if it´s supposed to be comforting words, it didn´t comfort me at all. I hope I am not only one here so if you have your story, please I am here for you.
I hope I have your patience and support and I wish you all the best from all my heart.